Sunday, April 18, 2010

A Great Blessing From a Curse

Worth It.

"Unto the woman he said, I will greatly multiply thy sorrow and thy conception: in sorrow thou shalt bring forth children. Genesis 3:16"

A week ago Leonard read aloud from my pregnancy book about the commonality of foot swelling late in the second trimester. I almost didn't let him finish, "Oh, that won't happen to me," I stated confidently, thinking of all of my poor pregnant patients and their edematous complaints. I had decided long ago that this pregnancy, and likewise the baby, would be the best ever. I had seen in clinic the difference that a good attitude can make in the outcome of disease, figuring that likewise the development of an unrealistic optimism would somehow supercede the inevitable physical changes that pregnancy causes.

I put the article from the usually spot-on pregnancy book out of my mind until yesterday when I felt a tingling in my toes. When the sensation could no longer be ignored I stood, looking down, and gasped. My reliably bony feet had been replaced with two pillowy soft bricks. The realization that I had no control over the changes occurring in my body hit me hard. Tears sprang to my eyes, and I began to cry. When I noted that my emotions were probably due to pregnancy hormones, also as the book had predicted, I cried even harder. I cried mostly for myself, but also for pregnant women in general, including Mother Eve as I understood that I, too, was feeling the brunt of Eve's transgression. "Just please don't send me a Cain," I prayed.

Leonard eventually found me in my emotional state, and cheered me up until we were both able to laugh at my chubby toes. Later on that day I watched Leonard push a wheelbarrow full of soil to our raised garden beds. Poor Leonard, I thought.
"In the sweat of thy face shalt thou eat bread Genesis 3:19.


Mandalynn said...

Oh, it looks like a real baby. No more Nugget.

M & L said...

that is so sweet. I envy you gals that get to view their most precious packages before they are delivered. love aunt lu

Peggy said...

Look at that sweet little nose!

Ron said...

Thanks for posting the new picture of our first grandbaby. Can't wait to hold the cute little soul in our arms.

Denise said...

no worries, my friend, the chubby feet, the weight gain, the healing from after delivery, it's ALL worth it once you have that little one! Such joy and sleepless nights!

Mindy said...

Pregnancy complaints are the worst because they illicit 2 responses:
1. People/Men who have never been or will never be pregnant think you're over reacting/hormonal/being a baby.

2. Women who have been pregnant want to share their pregnancy stories/woes/pains and then give a detailed account of their birth story/stories.

PS I could tell you some stories about swollen feet! :0)